A Mantra for Personal Development
Sitting cross-legged with my back supported against the wall, I begin to slowly bring my awareness back to my surroundings. I maintain a soft face, with a gentle smile as I naturally allow my fingers and toes to wiggle back to conscious life.
One leg seems to always fall asleep faster than the other, but I don’t mind this time. My mood and focus has steadily been improving over the past week. I’ve been practicing 30 minute meditation sessions — a big increase from my previous practice of five minute sessions upon waking.
My meditation teacher has been sending me guided meditations specific to my perceived anxieties and stressors. It didn’t take long for me to notice the benefits of having such a customized meditation, along with longer sessions.
After following these meditations consistently, I really started to get this overwhelming sense of gratitude each day. Initially a seed of a feeling, a rational mantra began to form in my mind:
“I already have it.”
A quick back story: The catalyst for reaching out to my friend for help was that I was feeling at the top of my game, and was working steady at a few projects. In spite of this, everything I was doing over the course of my day-to-day living felt like it was fleeting.
Whatever I did, I wasn’t fully present. My mind would be wandering to the next thing. By the days end, I’d have everything completed but somehow still feel empty. Productivity: check. Sense of accomplishment: nope.
Having meditations made with a clear intent for my unique stressors was something I felt that could really help. This is when I really I felt the words I already have it. They weren’t just words — they were a feeling. This meant experiencing how my body interpreted the message when I directed my awareness around it.
“By the days end, I’d have everything completed but somehow still feel empty. Productivity: check. Sense of accomplishment: nope.”
I already have it was the antidote to the anxious feeling about not yet being at my envisioned outcome. I realized that once I accomplished these goals, little would change in my behaviours.
I still have to write whether I have one follower or 1000.
I still have to coach people whether I consult with one company of 10.
I still have to innovate and create to things whether I am just starting out, or five years into a building a community.
I still have to show up no matter what.
So I thought to myself, “why not just act as if you already have the goals you originally set out for?”
Not to be delusional or entitled, but to start shifting my focus on appreciation rather than on expectation.
“What would a person that has accomplished these things be doing?” Then I would act accordingly. It was a mindset shift from scarcity and lacking, to abundance and strength.
“Here’s everything that I have done, that I can do, and that I will continue doing” I reassured myself.
Two weeks into my guided sessions, I have noticed that I am becoming much more aware of my daily actions. Focusing on my energy and actions, time doesn’t feel as if it is slipping through my hands. Writing these words and being truly content with this process is something I am truly happy for.
The next mantra my teacher has me focusing on has been one that is really resonating and building off the epiphany I had with I already have it.
“I am supported. I am the support.”
These are words he has been getting me to direct into my heartspace, and beneath my sternum. After a couple of sessions of repeating this mantra, I realized that I already have it is as much about gratitude as it is about accomplishment.
The more I direct my attention towards to personal development, the easier it becomes to lose sight of how far I’ve come, where I am now, and who I have always been.
I decided that I must maintain gratitude while focusing on my personal development.
The allure of personal development is that it affords us opportunities to get grow, and get better. The book shelf grows. The podcast list builds. The courses add up. However, it also comes with the notion that we are not where we think we should be, where we want to be, or where we need to be.
It’s ironic: Take away gratitude from the journey of personal development, and we are simply left with another version of the hedonic treadmill.
However you achieve a sense of ongoing gratitude is yours to decide. Whether it’s from meditation, a gratitude journal, or daily mantras, just be sure to decide on something. Find what works best for you, and hold onto it effortlessly.
“The allure of personal development is that it affords us opportunities to grow, and get better… However, it also comes with the notion that we are not where we think we should be...”
Continuing on, my aim is to become so appreciative of the process that I never fall into the trap of feeling like I am not enough, or somewhere I think I should not be. After all,
I already have it.
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